The reality of life...(for me)

There have been three months since my mum's go.During this period,i really learnt a lot of things about the reality of life.Life?is it so cruel and unfair?Just try to imagine,some people able to get what they want.Some people,maybe they have tried hard,but in the end they still might get nothing.Starting from the moment human born,we already walking to the road of death.Somehow i will think,if when we just born,we already heading to death,then what for we still striving so hard?As in the end we also will walk on the road of death and go somewhere else which we don't know.The difference just some people step on the road of death earlier,whereas some people later..But,this is absolutely wrong thinking.We should think like this,in reality,life is really like brief candle,so in this short of period,we should do as much meaningful things as we can.We should live life happily and meaningfully.So that,when we want to close our eyes and step on to the road of death,we will not regret..right?


All things happen in life are really unpredictable.Honestly,until now,whenever i think about what happen to my mum,I still thought is it a dream??For me,it really happen too suddenly until i still need some time to accept it.Along this year,i really heard a lot of bad things happen to the others and including me myself.One of my schoolmates from Chung hwa,it is so pity that in only one night,he lost his father and his brother,and even her mother and sister still lying in hospital,because of one scary accident.During his father and brother's funeral,he also could not attend.Just because he have to take care of his mother and sister at hospital.How much pity is him if compared to me...This prove that there are really many things that we cant predict and we cant control..No matter what happens in our life,what we can do just appreciate what we have around of us...live meaningfully and happily.When something bad happen to us,we have to hold on,accept and still have to striving hard for our own life.This is what we called 'life'..

For me,life is really cruel.But what can i do?blame for the God for taking my mum's life so early??blame myself coz less care of my mum?blame the new car?blame for my dad coz buy the new car?I really did blame for all of this before this,but now i realise useless for me to blame all of this,coz although i blame for everything in this world,my mum will not return back already....What i have now,just my little sister.She is my only hope,whenever i am sad,i will think of her.I will holding on just because of her...

During this period,i really really suffered a lot.This feelings...not everyone can understand it...My heart like broke into pieces,very pain sometime.But,i felt lucky that i have all of you.Your(refer to all of my friends) support,your advices,your helps and everything...makes me try to stand up again and again...really thanks....Without friend's support,I can tell you,i already collapsed long long ago...

And by going through all of this,I think i am not easily sad like before this.Now i only realise what is the most sad things..and i have undergo the most sad thing in my life.Thats why others less important than this will not makes me sad already.And i know more about the reality of life,but by knowing all of the reality of life,the conclusion that i have made just one..'Life is really very short,appreciate what we have,coz u can't predict when they will lost...and at that moment you will very regret.'Life is cruel,but we still got to accept it,holding on and striving hard...no matter what had happened.'

Although for now,i still suffering a lot whenever thinking of my mum.I really very very miss her,nearly every night tears accompany me to sleep...and every night dreaming of her...But,i believe one day i can overcome this.Hope i able to do that.