When night comes....

Don't know start from when,i start to feel my heart always start to feel pain when night comes...all sadness comes to me...miss feelings comes towards me also...Sometime,i wonder this heart belongs to me or not...I just can't control 'it'...Night,always be my time to miss people...memories always start to play in my mind during night,no matter is sweet,bitter,sad...Sometime,even tears more frequently falls from my eyes during the night...Sometime,i just hope night will not comes...Maybe this is the reason,i always suddenly send message to my friends when night comes...I hope someone to accompany me so that i will not think so much,and some words i really suddenly want to tell them,and sometime suddenly i very miss them...such an emotional huisan appears when night comes...really weird...

When night comes,when i miss some friends,i just realise how important they are in my heart...which i don't realise it...and this causes many dreams comes to me during the night...Dreams,make me more miss them...make me more thinking about our sweet memories...lets see,hmm...i miss our crazy trip to K.L...i miss funny friends who fills my life with laughter...i miss friends that brings warm feeling to me...i miss friends that i don't have chance to meet her and talk with her...i miss friends who i can't talk to her....still a lot a lot that i miss...Sometime i wonder,is it everyday i just live in memories??!!I think 50% is yes...50% is no...Maybe i am just an emotional people that always like to think about memories...as i think it is very crucial in my life...I will not forget it,it will last in my mind and my heart forever...

I dinlike heart pain feeling...it makes my tears come out...it makes me really suffered...It will be worse than being shot...I really willing being shot rather than suffered with this heart pain feeling...You will not understand such pain if you never experienced it before...pain than any wounds in our body...And it have no medicine to cure..this is most worst...If have a medicine that can cure heart pain,i really willing to buy it no matter how expensive it is...But,there are some 'medicine' that atleast can decrease my heart pain feeling...

Someone that I really can count on when i am sad,someone really able to bring me up when i 'fall down'..even fall into 'hell'...Someone that immediately called me when i said i want to hear her voice after so long din meet her...makes me so touched...her voice makes me feel calm...the best friend that i ever had...Thanks so much,and sorry...coz always disturb you when i am sad or trouble...I appreciate you as my best friend...

Another one...always makes me smile and laugh when i am sad...even her single message which is always so funny for me,makes me smile and feel much more better..But,recently,(last night)she makes me feel sweet...haha~hope you will not sad already,k?I am sorry if i failed to entertain you,but I will always try my best to help you...always support you...As you always stay beside me when i feel down...I know you always so optimistic~You always can overcome all of this de,you giving me energy to overcome all of this too,thanks..T.T..Your funny action always able to bring me up~...

Another one..hmm,i know her last year,but we very fast become best friend already...as we same like to sing and always sing together...when i am sad,she always try her best to make me crazy and happy...I really touched too,and crazy with her really can decrease my heart pain feeling...Sometime she really crazy,and sometime she really sad...I hope she will always being crazy~but if sad,dun worry,i will always share with you...sad and happy together~

Anyway,although heart pain feeling being decreased,but it still happen anytime...is it i have heart disease??I really wonder whether there is a disease called 'heart pain'...sweat...=.='

Is it Human always like that?When something precious which always stay beside us,we don't even realise it's existence...but when we lost it,we just realise how important it is...But,when we start to appreciate this,all of this just like come to an end,it's too late to cure it...Then,we just will sad because of it...and start to regret...I think I am one of such type of people...such a big sigh,...if time can return,how good is it?Human will never have regret already,and maybe decrease sadness to be happen,happiness always comes to us...so good...haihzz...