At the midnight...first time i see him such sad...drinking alcohol...smoking..and cried all night...Maybe he don't realise what he said,coz of the effect of the alcoholic drink.But,i heard every sentence,every word he said.This is the first time his words makes me cry...tears droping...i don't even realise...but,I just stay at my bedroom,din brave to go out and see how is him...Coz i know,he will be more sad if he see me and my sister...and i don't want to see his sad face which probably will spoilt the little good images of a father in my heart...I din brave,i din brave to step out from my room...
I know,he loves us and don't want to leave us...But,i don't like the way he blaming my mum...why don't he just think of why?why everyone hates him and quarrel with him?instead of blaming everything to my mum..At that moment,i just want to go out from my room,and say out everything that keep in my heart all the time...But,i know my words sure will hurt him deeply and makes him more sad...his crying sound..makes me give up to do so...
The whole night,making all of my family suffered...I don't know how is my mum...but,i know she is more tough,maybe can say tougher than my father...But,last night...i still see and feel she sure got cried while seing my father being like that...This is really the first time i saw my dad such sad...as he never cried before...all of this making me,my sister and mum mostly din sleep for the whole night....but,tears just accompany me for the whole night...
I know,this time is the most serious time...and we must be prepared that he might leaves us and go somewhere else...my mum seems very tough,she never cried...i wonder is she really haves no feeling towards my father?coz quarrel always happen...or she pretend and keep everything in her heart?i so wish to ask her,but i don't brave to do so...i scared to see my mum cry...i know,if she cry,my heart will be very pain...i love my mum than my father,i know...is it i am too bad?as i know my father very care for us...but just his behaviour making us feel tired...but there is one possibility...maybe he is too loves us,whenever such a small thing,he might feel very very hurt and angry...I know this..coz i have been behave like this before...
Sigh...what will happen finally happen...i wonder my father will just leaves us like this?or will be back...and behave nothing happen just like before again...but finally end up quarrel with my mum again?I am so bad think that sometime i really wish divorce happen,and all of us will not suffered already...Tonight,what will happen again?sigh...unknown...i just know my mood now absolutely down to the hell....heart pain like ...don't know how to explain...and describe...but don't worry,i am still fine...
I know,he loves us and don't want to leave us...But,i don't like the way he blaming my mum...why don't he just think of why?why everyone hates him and quarrel with him?instead of blaming everything to my mum..At that moment,i just want to go out from my room,and say out everything that keep in my heart all the time...But,i know my words sure will hurt him deeply and makes him more sad...his crying sound..makes me give up to do so...
The whole night,making all of my family suffered...I don't know how is my mum...but,i know she is more tough,maybe can say tougher than my father...But,last night...i still see and feel she sure got cried while seing my father being like that...This is really the first time i saw my dad such sad...as he never cried before...all of this making me,my sister and mum mostly din sleep for the whole night....but,tears just accompany me for the whole night...
I know,this time is the most serious time...and we must be prepared that he might leaves us and go somewhere else...my mum seems very tough,she never cried...i wonder is she really haves no feeling towards my father?coz quarrel always happen...or she pretend and keep everything in her heart?i so wish to ask her,but i don't brave to do so...i scared to see my mum cry...i know,if she cry,my heart will be very pain...i love my mum than my father,i know...is it i am too bad?as i know my father very care for us...but just his behaviour making us feel tired...but there is one possibility...maybe he is too loves us,whenever such a small thing,he might feel very very hurt and angry...I know this..coz i have been behave like this before...
Sigh...what will happen finally happen...i wonder my father will just leaves us like this?or will be back...and behave nothing happen just like before again...but finally end up quarrel with my mum again?I am so bad think that sometime i really wish divorce happen,and all of us will not suffered already...Tonight,what will happen again?sigh...unknown...i just know my mood now absolutely down to the hell....heart pain like ...don't know how to explain...and describe...but don't worry,i am still fine...
All of this making me more and more don't believe the word..'Love'....relationship between human is such weak...and can be broken anytime...and hurts us finally....
5 comments:
You should tell him. Tell him your point of view, in a calm, patient way, but don't blame him. Even if he gets angry, it may be better if he at least can find another perspective to look at things.
Ask your mother what you wish to know. Sometimes tears can heal and reconcile. Don't let her keep everything in her heart. Be her patient listener. As you always say, if you care enough, do it!
If ever you feel the burden is too much, remember your friends. we are always available, even if in the middle of the night.
he won listen...i asked my mum,and i can talk nicely wv my mum...my mum seems really nth...mayb she really tougher and no feeling towards this...as quarrel always and always happen..until she oso tired....sometime i think divorce might the best way...we all tired d...k..but duno y..i tak sampai hati wan disturb u all...even not in the midnight...dun worry,i wil be ok de...learn to be tougher..
Come on Huisan, stand up!
You're tougher than you think you are~
Anyway, women is always stronger than men(in terms of mental strength)
You can overcome this problem, just let time do its job and everything will be fine.
Really, every family got its own problem, so feel no sadness.
Stay strong, girl, you can do it!
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be brave girl...be strong too..
there is alwaz sunny day after a raining day..everyone fce problem..
me either..
so..
please do hang on yea!!!
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hui san,what happen to your family?it sounds like your dad and mum having an quarrel,dont be too sad ya,again i`m maybe not a good counsellor,but i`m a good listener...cheer up girl..
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