-Holiday- = no holiday=.='

I am sorry to say that,long time i din update this blog already.Form six life?one word:-aiks-...homework like hill,exams every week atleast once,practical a lot which always make me like crazy people,start to feel stress...And plus,recently i have encounter many sad things,which make me extremely in a down mood.Happy huisan have gone!!can u find her now??she have lost her direction,duno how to go back the 'happy'road.

Every day,i don't feel like i want to go to school.haiz..coz after all my best friends have went other places,i feel the school is no longer a place that can give me a warm feeling..but in contrast,become a strange place for me ...I very very miss the time we can be together and play like a fool,chit and chat at the school,laugh until my tears out from my eyes...very miss...but now,i just like a huisan that always pretend to be happy infront of all my friends,noone can actually cheer me up,make me happy again although i am very sad at the moment..I think until now,just one or two of my precious best friend able to do this...But they both went to other places to study already.I very miss you all..T.T,until don't even know what words should i put to describe my feeling now...

Now holiday finally comes,but i din feel i am happy or what.Just feel like same like no holiday.This is because homework still like hill,exams still coming soon,practical also coming soon,make me breathless..Now,i just hope i can meet you all earlier,and i know..you all able to cheer me up no matter how sad i am...yeah,you always able to cheer me up...So,now i really very need you all...very very need...

Friendship??Haiz,sometime i din hope for any special friendship already.I just hope my friendship will not be such complex until i duno how to solve...make me really very sad...heart break until i duno how to describe the sad feeling that i had...can't even sleep...When i just close my eyes,i will thinking of something else already.Breathless...Tired,but i still want to continue.This is just because i know,i can't give up already as i tried before.Losing of friendship will make my life like less something very precious,very precious..Now,i just realise how important it is in my heart which i don't even realise before this.Regret?ya,i really regret..for saying the words which i always din mean that.I admit that i always do or say something that i really din mean that,why???!!!i myself also don't know what for i m doing all such kind of things??what can i say now??-speechless-Everytime i close my eyes,memories start to play in my mind,no matter is sad or happy..all attacking my mind and my heart..and also keep on 'asking' my tears to come out from my eyes...I still can't change myself to become as tough as possible..I just know, want me become happy??just have two ways.The first option,meet you all earlier,and chat with you all day and night...The second option,if i able to do something and save my friendship which i don't even want to give up...coz it had been my precious and invaluable friendship in my bottom heart since long time ago...

'I really miss the time that we can happy together,play like a fool..
I really miss you,although i can see you...
I am sorry to say such terrible words to you,but i don't really mean it..
I can see your tears in your eyes,but i don't really mean to let it flow from your eyes...I wish i will not let you sad...
if time can return,i will choose our friendship...
I appreciate you so much but just i don't really show it out infront of you...
I will not force this friendship become as good as before,but i will wait until it become as good as before,and i will try hard to make it become true...I hope you too...Hope that we will not give up it so easy,.
I appreciate you more than you thought...you are important and precious best friend in my heart...all of this is true.And all of this is really what i think from the first day i treat you as best friend till now,never change...'

Friendship is still my most precious thing in my life,i can't even change ...until the end of my life....This is huisan...

Waiting the time i can meet you all.Coz you all are my medicine...and my most precious friends..I just realise after long time din see you all,start to miss you all in my bottom heart...Human is always such weird,when things lost from our hand,we just know and start to learn how to grab it back and try to appreciate it...But,sometime it is too late...we can't even grab it back already..coz it already gone away until we can't even see it or it already belongs to others....So,friends..appreciate what you have now..don't try to give up anything that you might regret after that....