Wednesday, July 9, 2008

sad?

I am going to ask a weird question.what is sad?I think the definition of sad might be different for every people.But,for me,sad?is like a 'motivation' to let our tears drop from our eyes.(=.='),which make our heart damn suffered,until no medicine can really cure it.Somebody and scientist said that chocolates can make ones become happy and decrease our stress.How come i do not think so?No matter how much chocolates that i ate,the sadness is still there in my heart...Noone can take it away,noone can make it disappear from my heart,noone can really turns it into a sweet feeling,even me myself.No matter how i try my best to cheer up myself,but it is some kind like useless.Maybe when my friends are around me,my heartache will not be so serious.But once i am alone,my 'weird mind' start to think of nonsense,and the sadness which is no cure come to colonize me again....

The rainy days always make such emotional person like me have so much feeling.Sad and happy comes together to me.Happy?This is because rainy days give me a calm feeling,a great way to relax my myself.My hope is always let myself being wet by those beautiful drops of rains.Let me stand in the middle of some place,and let all rains come towards me.Ya,i think this feeling is great.I hope i have such chance to try it out.Not only that,if rains+ music,this is a wonderful pairs for me...Sometime,in certain condition or situation,i would like to feel sad and express all in out in a songs..This is because i thinks that if a songs without an real feeling,this song is no more a complete and wonderful song.But,of course i do not like the sad feeling all the time...I can say that i only like to be sad when i am singing...

Happy?Long time i din have such feeling already...I think is because friends that able to cheer me up already din by my side,sometime i really miss her laugh and cute voices and her jokes which able to cheer me up no matter how sad i am.She really have such ability to make anyone cheer up...i miss her...What i have just now?i hope i really can happy back.But i know...Since from that 'darkness day',i never smile or laugh which really comes from my bottom heart...The only cure just STPM...If i still can't do well,i think friends...i will never can stands up again,is not that i am not willing to stand up;but is i can't even forgive myself...Just like now,although can stands up again and try my best to do every exam again...But,the real smiles will not really appear in my face...since that day till now,NO...

Every day,wake up from my bed,looking at the beautiful blue sky..fresh air that make me relax a while...cute birds that can 'sing' with their sweet voices.Such beautiful environment or condition still unable to let myself get rid from my sadness which already being curved in my heart..noone can actually rub it out from my heart.Sometime i really wish i can change a new heart,so that i will not suffered heartache anymore...Heartache is more suffered than any diseases in this world...I just can't describe how pain is it....At this moment,you can't even concentrate to do anything,your tears just will keep on dropping and even dropping in your heart,until you feel you are really breathless.The most sad is,sometime i don't really let my tears drop from my eyes,coz i don't want let anyone see it.The only one see huisan cry just me myself...So,after sometime, when i am sad,my tears are just like already 'blame' or 'angry' me.'They' don't even want to out from my eyes although at that time i want express everything out and turns it into tears...The most suffered things is not when you are crying,but is when you are sad,till you can't even cry...That is what i felt before...Noone can understand it...even families or even my closest friends...

Here are some live songs from the most best,perfect,wonderful and marvellous group-Dong bang Shin Ki which always melt my heart,and make my tears that angry me finally drops from my eyes...hope this songs will touched you all to...try to listen using ur heart,instead of just watch and listen....

LOVE IN THE ICE...WONDERFUL,TOUCHED,PERFECT SONG FROM DONG BANG SHIN KI...WHICH MELT MY HEART EVERYTIME I HEAR IT...
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ASU WA KURU KARA...Touched song...They sing with their true feeling.. TRUE FEELING...JUNSU CRYING WHEN SINGING IT..and let my tears drops too....
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HEY!GIRL...Most Wonderful Combination Of DONG BANG SHIN KI'S BEAUTIFUL VOICES...
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