Yesterday is my happy day...so i suppose to write some event that make me happy about yesterday.But,my mood being spoilt today....Early in the morning,while i am still sleeping,my mum suddenly told me someone daughter score well in SPM..and start to compare this and that...why?is it result is the comparison of the teaching way of parents to their daughter or son?is it result is the things that parents use to make themselves proud?is it result is everything for parents?Actually i just make my mood stable after that scary day,and start to make myself study for form6...but one words from my mum already push me into the place that i don't want go-'hell',makes my mood drops from the highest point until the lowest point....did she know that,just a simple words,can make my heart pain again.The words is just like a 'sword' that shoot into my heart accurately,make my fat drops of tears flow from my eyes again...i really hate that...But,of course i din blame my mum,coz i know that is all my faults,cannot blame anyone.Now,notice that my friends is going to leave me,i already keep on telling myself..'i cannot be sad,and i can make it.I can be a tough and happy huisan without being the obstacle of their happiness,and will not make other ppl pity to me.I can do it.'But,i think i had fail to do it half already...my heart still will pain...the sadness never away from my heart,my mind...especially today when i hear the 'cruel' words,i suddenly burst everything out.... no energy to make myself tough again,and start to express every sadness out from my heart by writing this blog,by filling my emotion voice into a sad music,by make myself lying at my bed for few hours while my mum not at home....trying to make myself happy again..let myself can be tough again....but till now i din succeed to make it...haiz...huisan be back sad huisan again...cannot improved anymore into happy huisan d till now...but no matter how,i will try...i think i should remember this sentence...'a smile's curve can straighten everything'... hope i can make my mood up to the highest position again....and can secure myself from the place called 'hell'....i think now...i need TRUE FRIEND to share everything with me....
