Happiness always too far from me....whenever i want to go near...it always away from me.why?I am making the steps,to make my mood stable back.But,keep on having disturbance and obstacles.haiz...why?
I just need encouragement to make my steps,but it seems so hard for me...even my 'medicine' also cannot cure me anymore,so what can i do?I already try my best to be happy again,but on the way to achieve the happiness,always have a large obstacle which make me so suffered and tired.I really scared one day i will give up,and just be a dead body half of the way....Friends..sorry...sometime i do really wish to say out everything of my sadness,share with you all,but i still don't want make u all worry about me or..haiz..i also don't know why...I just prefer calm down alone,hide myself alone to express everything..but,sometime i really can't solve it alone...
Sometime,maybe noone can understand my feeling....spm?!!!!why everyone ask about you?i am so scared of you although you already become a history...Whenever got some my parent's friends come to my house,i prefer to hide myself in a room,don't want to face them,don't want to answer their question about you...even want go a new tuition,i also will try to hide myself from the teacher..just want avoid teacher to talk to me...I am just like a snail...or a turtle..din brave to face people sometime..i dinlike..i really dinlike!!!!but,what can i do?I really feel shame coz of you!!!now i already start to imagine,how am i going to face my teacher at school?if they ask about you..how am i going to answer?i think that time i need a hole to hide myself again...haiz...my life..when such life going to be the end?.....i just don't know how to share my sadness to you all,so i just writing this blog to express everything...every sadness in my heart...everything that i worry about...and everything i want to say....
I just need encouragement to make my steps,but it seems so hard for me...even my 'medicine' also cannot cure me anymore,so what can i do?I already try my best to be happy again,but on the way to achieve the happiness,always have a large obstacle which make me so suffered and tired.I really scared one day i will give up,and just be a dead body half of the way....Friends..sorry...sometime i do really wish to say out everything of my sadness,share with you all,but i still don't want make u all worry about me or..haiz..i also don't know why...I just prefer calm down alone,hide myself alone to express everything..but,sometime i really can't solve it alone...
Sometime,maybe noone can understand my feeling....spm?!!!!why everyone ask about you?i am so scared of you although you already become a history...Whenever got some my parent's friends come to my house,i prefer to hide myself in a room,don't want to face them,don't want to answer their question about you...even want go a new tuition,i also will try to hide myself from the teacher..just want avoid teacher to talk to me...I am just like a snail...or a turtle..din brave to face people sometime..i dinlike..i really dinlike!!!!but,what can i do?I really feel shame coz of you!!!now i already start to imagine,how am i going to face my teacher at school?if they ask about you..how am i going to answer?i think that time i need a hole to hide myself again...haiz...my life..when such life going to be the end?.....i just don't know how to share my sadness to you all,so i just writing this blog to express everything...every sadness in my heart...everything that i worry about...and everything i want to say....
