Friendship?is it really so important for me?is it i care so much for that?haizz..i think i really crazy..where got people sad for this...but y my heart feel pain coz of that?stupid la!ok..dun keep on blaming myself...try to say what actually happen today first...actually nothing also lar..haizz..just my weakness which are think too much,too care for friends...too sensitive 'appear' again...this all weakness just always 'appear' in my life...which always let my mood 'fly' into a place ...'hell' again..i hate such feeling..really hate...i really hope can change myself...did anyone coz like chat with friends till no topic..so she feel like herself very boring..scared will make friend boring too..so she become sad??!!!did anyone coz scared will make a best friend or can say idol ...bored..so she think hardly what topic she want to chat before she find her that best friend to chat??haizz..is it funny?then i tell u who is this stupid people..THAT IS ME!!!why am i so care for friends?why am i can sad coz of such small thing?sometime i also do not understand myself well...everytime i just hope my friends happy...why am i so CARE FOR FRIENDS???the answer..ya..i know...coz maybe friendship is most precious things in my life..but i think i should change...my words~~'too care for people..you may coz of it then become suffered'...let me feel i wan to change myself...so that i not so care for friends...but...this is just like unchangeable...hard..really hard to change...i hope for an 'angel' which able to use magic and turn me into another type of people...who is always very happy...and always think of positive way...and never think too much about something..i like such characterictics..i hope this all will appear in myself...really hope...but no matter how..i know...FRIENDSHIP IS STILLTHE MOST IMPORTANT AND PRECIOUS THING IN MY LIFE...noone can change it...even myself...what can i do?maybe i just can be back myself.....who is always so appreciate friendship...really can make anything just wan her best friends happy..THAT IS ME...izzit what i said are right?just give me your opinion...but dun worry..i am alright!!!hahaha..even heart pain..but just a bit..still not going to 'hell' this place..don't worry..^^
