Keep on blaming myself...heart keep on feeling pain...tears keep on dropping....keep on hiding myself from anyone....that is my life in this few days....friends....thanks for concern me...and sorry coz din reply u all messages...i not dun wan reply...but...duno how to reply...Just like what i said before...I had 'fall down' many times...If I 'fall down' again...I duno myself will become how...Now,I know d...I just like a dead body...no smiles appear at my face...nothing can cheear me up...got to see my parents disappointed face...such life is just like I had 'fall down'into a place called 'hell'...noone can rescue me from that place...But,I promise myself and parents...I will 'stand up' again...now I starting a new life...but still no smiles could appear at my face....I will fight against for STPM...coz I know that is the only way that I wan rescue my future....If I 'fall down' again..I ...my future...will just gone like that...disappear ...So,I will not let my future become like that...I will 'stand up'again...friends...don't worry...But,I still can't even face anyone of my friends..now...even best friends....I don't want become an 'obstacle'of your all happiness...I just let myself sad alone...and din express to anyone this few days....sorry..friends...I can't sure whether before de Hui San will still appear infront of you all or not...maybe will become another people without smiles...just in her study world...coz not to let her future gone...maybe Hui San will change into such type of person....
That day....I will never forget...the day which I first time found no place for me to go...scared to go home...but finally still feel home is the best place for me to hide...mum keep on blaming me...but finally..still comfort me...I feel very touched...at that time,I just realise my mum....is so good....but more good she treat me..more tears dropping from my eyes...coz I let her disappointed...sorry..really sorry....maybe for SPM,I really din try my best..but I really promise...I will fight harder for STPM...I promise....no more play....
friends...I duno how to face you all..this situation duno will last for how long...few days?fe months?or?i really duno...just can say sorry...I promise you all..I will not give up...will not hurt myself...but...I can't promise smiles whether still can appear at my face and can't promise whether I will become before de hui san who play around with you all...I am no longer a good friend maybe....just can tell you all...I am stil ok..although now I still live in 'a sad world'....I have pass my car exam...and I maybe no need go NS already...thats all I wan to tell you all....
That day....I will never forget...the day which I first time found no place for me to go...scared to go home...but finally still feel home is the best place for me to hide...mum keep on blaming me...but finally..still comfort me...I feel very touched...at that time,I just realise my mum....is so good....but more good she treat me..more tears dropping from my eyes...coz I let her disappointed...sorry..really sorry....maybe for SPM,I really din try my best..but I really promise...I will fight harder for STPM...I promise....no more play....
friends...I duno how to face you all..this situation duno will last for how long...few days?fe months?or?i really duno...just can say sorry...I promise you all..I will not give up...will not hurt myself...but...I can't promise smiles whether still can appear at my face and can't promise whether I will become before de hui san who play around with you all...I am no longer a good friend maybe....just can tell you all...I am stil ok..although now I still live in 'a sad world'....I have pass my car exam...and I maybe no need go NS already...thats all I wan to tell you all....
